Notes by Mermaid
There comes a point in life when you are at crossroads and you wait for at least a minute or two and think which way you should go. Left or right. The left might be right or maybe wrong so can be the right. But you do take the next step and I decided to take the left. Somewhere back in my mind I knew the left turn was a wrong one, would be full of hurdles, pits, strong currents, the path would be rocky which would ache me to bits but nevertheless that's the path I wanted to tread on.
Mermaid misses her Goat relentlessly.
The Goat is not the man for her. He never will be. He never was.
He does all the things to make Mermaid angry and miserable.
He makes her cry.
He makes her envious for reasons which are downright silly.
And one fine day or was it night ...no it was wee hours just before the crack of dawn when she tells him, "You are insane. You don't have the right to make me cry. Why are you asking me what you should do. Its your life. Go ahead and do whatever you feel like. Do not call me. Never."
"Never is too strong a word. Yet I am telling you, never talk to somebody who makes you angry, miserable, envious or makes you cry. I apologize for all I said. Do not cry again. Do you wish that I obey what you just said? Would you talk to me for one last time?", the Goat said.
There was a rush of nervousness and fear of the unknown, which are off course like books say harmless sign of subconscious feelings for romantic interest and are caused by the release of mood-altering endorphin in Mermaid.
I took a long and deep breath. I did not know what else to say.
"This is what I was waiting for. That intake of breath. I love it so much. And when you are an inch away from me I'm going to kiss you when you do that again. What are you going to do then my Mermaid?"
I said nothing. Nothing at all.
"You will probably die gasping for breath then".
"That would be a good way to die. To be kissed to death", I told my Goat.
"Why do you stay so far away? When can I see you next?", I asked him.
The Goat laughed and laughed all the more when I said, "What's so funny?"
"It is funny. You said you like the distance. And now you are asking me why I stay so far away from you?"
"I purposely do that. I don't want to see you.".
I cut him short, something he really does not like. "I like the 310 kms/181 miles so that I can drive to be with you. And when we meet I will be at least a foot away from you. So don't try to stay that far away".
"Do you think I will be able to hold myself... to stop myself from holding you. Do you think you will be able to stand a foot away from me?" the Goat asked me teasingly.
"I am in love with you. Don't you realize that?"
And here I am ... the Mermaid who has been in love with her Goat for the last twenty five years.